"i don't feel anything."
it was suppose to be the happiest day of ophelia's life. the first down fall was she was barely a sophomore in college and her parents, both pastors forbid to have anything to do with ophelia's baby out of wedlock. she was laid up in the hospital spread with all her goods showing trying to stay focused on pushing. she was bringing life into the world and while she didn't have help from her parents, it was a known fact that she planned to be with sebastian forever. there was no doubt about that, she wanted that. kids? well they haven't really discussed it. they also weren't idiots either and knowing that sex out of wedlock wasn't the most ideal situation. she was surprised that he had even decided to stick around.
a few more hours surpassed and the cry she had been anxious to hear filled the room. the doctor announced that it was a boy and the entire room went from silence to loudness. a new life was born with no name, but it didn't mean that she didn't have a selection of names she favored. the other down fall? ophelia felt numb, maybe it was the way his blue eyes sparkled looking like a mini version of his father. it could be the fact that she drowned out the noise. she didn't unsure of what was causing her to be so afraid of what just happened and how it could change her for the better or worst case, the worst.
several months later, ophelia found herself a single parent with the help of a nanny. a nanny that assisted more than she did with her child. ophelia found herself lashing out whenever warren would scream at the top of his lungs, the urge to throw things. she didn't know why she failed to remember little things as if her mind was occupied with other thoughts. she was spacy , off in another world as if nothing and no one mattered. there was this one incident where she almost ran a red light. it would take two years after for her to come to the conclusion that her fear , anger , fatigue and lack of concentration were all symptoms of postpartum depression.
as a toddler, warren was considered a firecracker. he was extremely active and stubborn in his ways. his favorite word was "no" , but he was still accepting to change. he didn't steer from meeting new people especially complete strangers. whenever he heard the word "hello" , he took it as being spoken to thus greeting the individual with a huge smile and rather loud greeting.
looks define nothing
warren's parents never married. his parents split when he was three and they began the co-parent the next few years. sebastian ross died following a massive asthma attack when warren was eight years old. ophelia mourned by working as many jobs as she can take on while warren's caregiver stepped in on a as needed basics. his mother married for the first time when he was eleven bringing in the arrival of his younger sister aaliyah in 1992.
the family relocated to ashwick valley when warren was sixteen. holton was decided to uproot the family to be closer to his own given that ophelia no longer had interest in trying to get some kind of answer from her parents. year after year, she would send them updates of warren and even on her daughter. every time, they would be returned to her hurting her pride a little bit more every day. the best solution for her was to move on and get a fresh start in a new state.
warren enrolled in lincoln high school with every intention of being in the background. he excelled in academics showcasing honor roll potential and the chance to take ap classes, which he ultimately decided to take. this came with his need to do well for the f. although, some may have labeled him a distraction given his genetics, he made it a point to get socially involved in sports (mainly basketball and track).
although he was a star athlete and a honor roll student during this time, warren's willingness to be open to his peers became a bit selective. he was still open to meeting people, but socializing with them outside of school wasn't his main focus. it also made him nervous because he felt more sociable in school than out of. he was careful in his ways of wanting nothing but the best for himself. a social life was something he tried to commit too , but ultimately put on the backburner resorting to being a homebody or working over the weekend.
i could use a love song
warren applied to many colleges and slowly began thinking about his future. he knew that he was selective with most things in his life. he also knew that he was known to be a bit sarcastic to those close to him, but ultimately still somebody that could give their best advice. after countless talks with his guidance counselor, he looked over various majors debating between communications and a medical degree. he settled for going to school for psychology and enrolled as a student at stanford university.
challenging himself to revert back into his childhood self in personality, he dabbled in various activities stanford had to offer. he joined the black business student association club , participated in fitness classes and decided to live on campus his sophomore year of college. he became more easy going and approachable in the sense that his friends found it comforting to have an ear that would listen. he was more willing to get out of his little bubble and try new things even if it scared him (like bungee jumping due to his fear of heights). he was learning to balance having a social life while trying not to be uptight.
his desire to focus on his future career put his romantic life at a standstill over the years. although he dated in the past, he didn't really care to have anything that was serious. mostly due to the fact that he was young and serious relationships wasn't something he was looking for. after completing his P.H.D, he slowly worked up the courage to date more often. some relations turned into flings to occupy his time and others short lived relationships. at this point, he would love to just settle for a stable relationship that was healthy and more open in communication, something he knows he lacked in the past.
communication is something that warren has perfected with more and more. thirty-five year old warren is comfortable in who he is as a man. he knows that he is is unpredictable and indecisive. he is also self-forgetful. his tough love or blunt nature can be something that could push people away. all in all, he considers himself an "go with the flow" family orientated guy even though half of the time he is "checked out" and trying to figure out the other person than what's going on around him.